This is a reflection I wrote after praying the scripture John 14:23–29. If you would like to read the scripture, you can find here: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+14%3A23%E2%80%9329&version=NRSVUE
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“Those who love me will keep my word, and my Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.”
God knows I try to follow Jesus and keep is word, but I have made so many mistakes in the past. I denied knowing him – not once but three times. I was among the disciples when we doubted Jesus could feed all the people gathered and when we tried to keep the children from approaching Jesus – tried to keep them in what we thought was their proper place. And how could I ever forget the time I sank into the lake because I lost faith in Jesus’s ability to walk on water – the other disciples certainly won’t let me forget it. “Hey Peter, why don’t you go for a walk – you could use a bath!” “Hey Peter, does Jesus call you the rock because you sink like a stone?” Like I need them reminding me of my doubts. I have enough of those on my own. I have made so many mistakes in the past – misinterpreted what Jesus wanted so many times and now he is telling us that he is no longer going to be here in person to guide me back.
I am NOT ready for this!
How could Jesus leave me? I still have so much to learn! He tells us, “Do not let your hearts be troubled” but how can they not be? I dropped everything and dedicated my whole life to following Jesus. How can I continue to do that if he is not there to follow? How am I supposed to know what is the Holy Spirit guiding me and what are my own thoughts and desires? What if I get it so wrong that I become one of those people who “do not keep [Jesus’s] words?
Okay, I am spiraling. I need to relax. Jesus must know what he is doing. If he believes I am ready to go out on my own I can do this…I can do this. I just need to learn to listen to the Spirit guiding me from within…